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cuckoo's nest for writers

Want to know how to write a novel? Read One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, by Ken Kesey.

I saw the movie…40 years ago? I just read the book.

There’s so much to talk about. It’s a great book (but not without controversy) and another day we’ll get into what the book’s about.

If you’re a student of the craft of novel writing, you know the rules. And as you try hard to stick the rules, you see so many successful novels that break them. Cuckoo’s Next follows the rules. And is brilliant for it.

Plot Summary:

Randle McMurphy is serving a sentence at a prison work farm and gets himself committed to a mental hospital in hopes of doing his time in a cushier setting.

The Beginning:

McMurphy arrives at the hospital. No backstory. No set-up. No character development. No prologue, just story. In medias res. The way it’s supposed to be.

Point-of View:

The rules say to tell the story from one perspective. Yes, modern sensibilities allow for multiple points-of-view, but that approach is fraught with potential trouble. One point-of-view is the safe choice.

Cuckoo’s Nest is told from the point-of-view of mental patient, Chief Bromden, a Native-American. Everything is told from his perspective. If Chief doesn’t see it, we don’t see it. Chief can only surmise character motivations based on what he sees and what others may tell him. The author doesn’t jump around and tell us what the other characters are thinking. It’s all from Chief’s point of view. No omniscient narrator. And because we know what he thinks, we know much more about him than any other character.

The Protagonist:

McMurphy is the protagonist. That doesn’t mean he is the most virtuous character in the book. That’s probably Chief Bromden. McMurphy is the classic anti-hero. He’s not a good guy, but he’s very likable. And as he hustles his fellow patients, he does it in a way that lifts their spirits. Everybody loves him. Everybody but Nurse Ratched.

The Antagonist:

Sometimes the antagonist in a novel isn’t a person, but something keeping the protagonist from reaching his/her goal. McMurphy fighting the system? Well, yes, but the antagonist in Cuckoo’s Nest is not so amorphous. It’s Nurse Ratched. No doubt about it. One of the most unlikable characters I’ve ever met. She’s not evil in a Bond villain kind of way; she’s just cold and mean and against McMurphy in every way. The lines are drawn. The reader wants McMurphy to win. And Ratched to lose.

The Ending:

I’ve read that in classic literature, there is comedy and tragedy. The comedy isn’t necessarily funny; it’s prime characteristic is the happy ending. The tragedy is just the opposite.

Cuckoo’s Nest is a tragedy. The happy ending may give you a moment of contentment, but the tragedy stays with you, haunts you, makes you think. What might have been? What if McMurphy had won? What if Nurse Ratched had lost? Could it have made a difference for Billy Bibbit? And what of Chief Bromden? Did he ever make it home?

If you read this 50 year-old novel, you’ll be jarred by some references that are considered offensive today. But is it Kesey or his characters making the references? The characters, of course. They’re flawed. But does that give Kesey license to let them say what they do? We’ll get into that in more detail later. What Kesey does that’s indisputable is craft a story that takes you to the edge of realism at a pace that seems perfect. In the second half of the book, when the story rolls like a boulder down a mountain, he does nothing to get in the way. It’s a great example of plot and character development in perfect sync.

Read and learn, fellow writers.

and then came lawrence

There was no way this was happening. He was fearless, for sure, this shirtless little man with stringy, dark hair to his shoulders. But there he was, on top of Brando, sweat flying in every direction as he flailed at his head. He wiped his eyes with his glove and spit on the ground.

It wasn’t a fair fight. Wasn’t really supposed to be a fight at all. And it definitely wasn’t supposed to turn out like this.


Thirty years ago? Forty?

We were taking our turns boxing against Brando. Gary, Kevin, and me. I was first. 

Brando could have laid any one of us out with one punch, but I wasn’t scared. Because we weren’t really fighting. We were role playing as much as anything.

I moved in circles around him, peering over my gloves. I’m Ali. Lithe. Quick. Float like a butterfly.

A quick jab.

Barely even touched his gloves in front of his face. He was smiling. I was just trying to look the part.

Jab. Jab.

Sting like a bee. Though really, there wasn’t much stinging going on.

Brando’s the plodding Frazier. And true to form, he was much stronger, but I was quicker. 

Jab. Jab. Jab.  

Then a quick right to his head. 

Brando blocked it easily with his massive forearms. It’s what I expected.  The last thing I wanted was to connect and have him come after me. We were just fooling around.

Brando threw a few jabs of his own, but they never connected as I leaned back out of his reach. 

I circled to my left, on my toes. Dancing. The Ali shuffle.  That earned mock whoops of praise from the other guys. 

Maybe I really was a boxer. Maybe I had what it took. Maybe with a little training I could learn to throw a solid punch and maybe…

And then I was on my back looking up at white, fuzzy clouds against a blue sky. The side of my face was numb. I never saw it, but it had to be a left hook, because I was watching his right hand, knowing it would follow one of his easy jabs. But it didn’t.  I heard the howls and then the laughter. I sat up, my eyes watering as I tried to focus on Brando’s canvas sneakers in front of me.  To my right, sandals. Gary. To my left, Kevin was barefoot. He walked to me and I thought he was going to see if I was all right. He bent over and pulled off the gloves. It was his turn. I sat there for a few more minutes.

Kevin was the guy most likely to spend time in an eight by ten cell. In school, he couldn’t help being a smart-ass.  Seemed like it was just his nature. Even with the teachers. He was always being sent to the principal’s office. Always in a fight with someone. And when he fought, he went for blood. No wrestling matches with Kevin. A punch in the mouth was just to get things warmed up. A knee to the face and a broken nose was how his fights usually ended. Or so I was told. I only saw one of his fights and it was so frightening I left before it was over. Everyone was scared of him. Everyone but Brando.

I don’t know if Kevin had ever watched a Muhammed Ali fight. Don’t know if he knew who Joe Frazier was or George Foreman or Sonny Liston. Don’t know if he knew the difference between a boxing match and a street fight. Don’t know if he knew he couldn’t grab or push or kick or bite or put a knee to the face. He didn’t look like a boxer and if not for the pads weighing down his fists of stone, I would have bet money that Brando was going down.

He stood, arms to his side, waiting for Brando to do something. Brando laughed, then threw a serious jab and hit Kevin square in the face.  Kevin countered with a hard right that Brando easily slipped. He laughed again.

Kevin faked a left then threw another right. Brando blocked it with his arms. Then Kevin feigned the right again and came from the other direction with a looping left hook. Brando managed to get his gloves up just as the punch smacked him in the side of head. Had it been a little more direct, it might have been big trouble. As it was, it it merely signaled to Brando that Kevin had a lesson to learn. They sneered at each other. Something was about to happen. It wouldn’t take much to turn this into a real fight.

Kevin backed off, threw a couple of hard jabs that Brando slipped easily. Then Kevin went downstairs. A right to the side of Brando, who let out a grunt as the air left his lungs. Then a hard left in the middle of his stomach. Brando doubled over, and as Kevin was loading up another right, Brando pushed him backward. Brando straightened up and I could see there was no trace of a smile, no play in the eyes. Kevin knew he was in trouble.

Hey, sorry, Brando. Low blow.

Appeasement got Neville Chamberlain nowhere and it didn’t help Kevin. Maybe a little. Looking back on history makes judgments easier. Kevin still got what was coming to him, a brutal combination that bloodied his lip and nearly sent him rolling down the hill toward Gary’s back yard. But it could have been worse. Brando could have drawn out the punishment, could have really made him pay. 

Kevin got to his feet and walked back up the hill toward the rest of us. He untied the gloves with his teeth and flung them toward Brando’s feet.

You’re one tough son-of-a-bitch. 

He laughed as he said it. It was over. The equivalent of the lessor dog on its back, submitting to the alpha. Brando grabbed him in a headlock and tapped his head a few times with his gloved fist. Then he pushed him away. Kevin forced another laugh as he soaked up the blood running down his lip with his shirttail. 

So that was it. What next?  We were an easily distracted bunch. We had gathered that day to play music. Or try to play music. Brando, who had somehow acquired a bass guitar and learned the opening riff of Smoke on the Water, thought he needed a band. I had a guitar and knew three chords so I was in.  I don’t know why Kevin was chosen as the singer. As far as I knew, he had no musical background at all, but I did sense a dangerous charisma, like Jim Morrison or Mick Jagger. Maybe that’s all we needed. And then there was Gary.

Gary was a quiet guy.  He had no interest in taking on Brando, even though he probably knew more about boxing than the rest of us. It was Brando who had noticed the boxing gloves hanging from a nail in the garage and suggested we give it a go. They were Gary’s brother’s gloves and I have no doubt that he and his brother had sparred, but I got the feeling that he had no patience for high-school kids sullying the sweet science. Yeah, Gary was too brainy for our little group. He loved electronics and was always tinkering with something. Later that day we’d tool around on a mini-bike he had built. But Gary had a drum set and could keep a beat so there we were at his house.

Gary gathered the gloves and we headed toward the garage.  

And then came Lawrence.

He cruised in on his bicycle, coasting to a stop at the top of the driveway, looking down on us. Brando and Kevin exchanged a glance and it was Brando who made first contact.

Lawrence!

I had no idea who he was, this skinny, scraggly guy with no shirt, riding a bicycle with streamers on the handle bars and a horn on the front. He was older, but I know now that it was by no more than ten years. Still old enough to not be riding around on a pimped-out, beater-bike, old enough to have better things to do than look for company with school kids, old enough to have enough sense to recognize real trouble in the form of Brando and Kevin, who had enough mean in them to put some serious torment onto the meek and the lowly, and all it would take was the sniff of arrogance, the notion that Brando and Kevin, though physically superior to almost all who crossed their paths, were not on the same playing field intellectually, or that over time, righteousness would reign and the meek and the lowly would indeed inherit the earth, and the beast would be cast into the lake of fire. As I would learn much later in life, God’s plans are fulfilled in God’s time where a day is like a thousand years and though justice would eventually prevail, it might not come soon enough for the victims of Brando and Kevin. The scars of their torment could linger for years.

And so I wondered, what of Lawrence?

But I could see it coming.

So Brando knew him.

Lawrence got off his bike and dropped it to the curb. He walked bow-legged down the gravel driveway, limping a little, or maybe not quite a limp, but something was wrong with his gait that made him look like he could fall apart if his foot hit a gopher hole at the wrong angle.

Kevin wiped his lip one last time and spoke.

Lawrence. How the hell are you?

Lawrence stopped, cocked his head to one side and peered through squinted eyelids as he looked at Kevin.

Do I know you? A slight nasal twang.

Oh yeah. Kevin took a couple of steps toward him. We go way back.

The expression on Lawrence’s face didn’t change.  Still studying.  Still trying to find something familiar.

I couldn’t tell if Kevin was just messing with Lawrence or if the story he told him actually happened. 

Down by the river a couple of months ago. We were drinking and smoking weed. Don’t you remember?

Maybe. Them funny cigarettes made me sick. Was you there?

Kevin rattled off names of other people who were there. I recognized some. Older kids.

Kevin continued. You were telling us you were part injun.

Lawrence raised his head a little and looked Kevin square in the eyes.

I am. Cherokee.

Easy, Chief, I ain’t looking to start nothing. Kevin took another step toward Lawrence and threw a left and a right to his midsection, pulling his punches before making contact. Lawrence flinched and pulled his arms in front of his stomach, but it would have been too late had the punches been real.

You’ve got good reflexes, Lawrence. Kevin glanced at Brando. Think you could go a round with him?

Gary had stopped halfway to the garage and stood watching, boxing gloves in his hands.  No, we’re done.  He turned and started walking toward the garage, but Brando caught up to him and took the gloves.

Gary spoke softly. Come on, Brando. Take it easy.

I’m not going to hurt him. Just going have a little fun.

Kevin had set the table. Brando was going to serve. He held one glove out for Lawrence and with no protest whatsoever, he slipped his hand in the glove.

Have you ever boxed, Lawrence?

Yeah, I’ve boxed.

His response was unconvincing. Brando put the other glove on and tied the laces. Then he slipped the gloves back on his own hands. I was with Gary on this one. There was something about Lawrence. Innocent isn’t quite the right word. Naive, maybe. I could see that he didn’t know he was being taken advantage of. Didn’t know they were laughing at him, not with him. Didn’t know that he was a victim.  But who was I to stop it?

Yeah. Who was I. Wrong guy in the wrong crowd.

Joe Average.

Not exceptionally smart. Not stupid, either, but I wouldn’t know the first thing about electronics or building a mini-bike. I was no Gary. Teachers liked me because I was quiet and never caused any trouble. Unlike Kevin, I was the least likely to end up in jail. I always followed the rules. And that thing about the three guitar chords?  Only a slight exaggeration. I was no musician. All of this combined to make me easily forgettable, a trait I carry with me to this day. 

But over the years I’ve learned that people see me like they see a friendly dog. There are dogs you know to stay away from. Pit bulls and Dobermans. There are annoying dogs.  Terriers and Chihuahuas.  The are the popular dogs that everyone loves. Retrievers. And then there’s the mutt. Just a regular dog that keeps to itself, doesn’t bark a lot, doesn’t nip at your heels doesn’t bite the hand that feeds it and is no threat to rip your face off.  That’s me.

So what was I doing there with Kevin the pit bull, and Brando the German shepherd, and Gary  – well, what was Gary?  Border collie, maybe?  And Lawrence, let’s just say he was a free-range breed of his own.

I was there because of Brando.

It wasn’t that long ago that he was the new kid in the neighborhood. Moved in with his mother and sister. I never knew anything about a father who wasn’t there. Before he grew to be the behomoth that no one would bother, he was a slightly overweight, soft kid with red hair. Might have been a target himself. So when he discovered the harmless mutt that would be friends with anyone, we started hanging out together. And as his body and confidence grew, so did his circle of friends. I learned that he was pretty sharp, this wild, beast of a boy, and guys like Gary challenged his intellect. But there was a side of him that craved adventure. He once rode a bicycle down Elm Street, the steepest street in our neighborhood.  At the end of Elm Street was a block wall. The bicycle had no brakes. He wore no shoes. He tried to stop and tore up his feet. And then hit the wall. The bike was ruined. He was able to hobble home and the legend of Brando was born. 

It’s no surprise that he would start hanging out with guys like Kevin.

So there you have it. Who am I in this pack of alpha dogs? I stayed silent as Lawrence banged his gloved fists together.

They moved to the level spot in the yard that had served as the boxing ring. Lawrence wobbled as he walked, the over-sized gloves hanging by his side. Gary tried one last time.

Come on, Brando. You’re three times his size.

Brando winked at Gary.

Lawrence turned around, holding the gloves out to his side, as if ready to throw a punch. 

Don’t matter. I’ll kick his butt.

We laughed. Gary shook his head and threw up his arms. He walked to Lawrence and pulled the gloves up high in front of his face. 

If you’re gong to do this, keep your hands up. Try to block his punches. Then he pushed Lawrence’s feet with his own, spreading his stance to shoulder-width, one foot slightly in front of the other. 

Are you left-handed, Lawrence?

I throw a ball with my left hand, if that’s what you’re getting at.

Gary adjusted his stance for a southpaw boxer.  Then he whispered to Lawrence.

Just keep your hands in front of your face. Keep moving. Throw a jab now and then and don’t do anything crazy. Just let him have his fun.

Lawrence tried to brush the hair from his face and rubbed the worn leather across his eye.

Brando was anxious to start the show.

Come on, Angelo, enough training. Let’s get it on.

Brando held out his gloves for Lawrence to tap, the age-old sign of respect that boxers engage in before trying to knock each other’s brains out. Apparently Lawrence was unfamiliar with the tradition.

He jumped up and swung a wild right hand over Brando’s arms and across his nose. Brando was stunned.  He reached up with his glove and touched his nose. Blood flowed onto the thumb and his eyes watered. Before he could react, Lawrence had come from the other side and slapped a left to the side of Brando’s head.

This thing was out of control already. Gary yelled at Lawrence, trying to get his attention, trying to get him to back off, maybe save him from the beating that was sure to come.  But it was too late.

Lawrence came at Brando again, this time launching himself right into the chest of Brando, and though he was a skinny runt, he hit Brando at just the right angle with just the right momentum to knock him backwards. They stumbled onto the ground, Lawrence on top, pummeling Brando in the face with everything he had. For a moment, I really thought Lawrence was going to kill him.

Gary moved to pull Lawrence back but before he could, Brando had gathered his senses and tossed him aside. He got up and pulled back his foot to kick Lawrence, but Lawrence rolled out of the way and was circling behind Brando as his foot sailed through the air. Lawrence jumped on Brando’s back and was holding his neck with one hand and punching the side of his head with the other.  Brando reached over his shoulder and pulled Lawrence over, throwing him to the ground in front of him. Lawrence hit feet-first but his momentum pulled him over and he face-planted on the hard, trampled ground.

Now it was Lawrence who was dazed. Brando reached down and pulled him to his feet and we could see dirt and rocks embedded in his face and blood starting to flow from his nose and mouth. Brando held him up with his left hand and drew back his right as Lawrence started to squirm and punch the air. And then Brando saw it.

Lawrence was already beaten, the fight lost, even though Brando had never thrown a punch. There was plenty of fight left in Lawrence. There always would be. But he would never win. Brando saw that, and instead of punching his lights out, he pushed him away. In one motion, he flung his gloves to the ground and then held up his hands.

You win, Lawrence. I don’t want any more.

Lawrence gathered himself and faked another right to Brando.

Damn right.

Brando smiled, blood running from his nose over his lips. 

Gary untied the gloves.

Come on, Lawrence. I’ll get you a pop.

We followed them to the garage, sat around for a little while, then spent the rest of the day riding the mini-bike. Our band never played its first note.


We saw Lawrence a few more times that year.  I even boxed with him once.  I was scared to death.  I knew he was crazy. But no more blood was spilled.  Lawrence never even came close to matching the fury he showed us that day.  

Winter came and by spring we were already forming new alliances.  Friendship is a fleeting thing when you’re young.  We graduated and I haven’t seen those guys since.  

Gary died shortly after high school. Cancer, I think.

No idea what happened to Kevin. It wouldn’t surprise me if he was a Wall Street broker. Or if he was doing life at Rikers.   

I heard Brando is a NASA engineer. Now that surprises me. 

As for me, I work in my hometown and live in the same neighborhood I grew up in. I stay out of trouble and off of Facebook. I know a couple more guitar chords.  So, yeah, I’m still forgettable. 

A few years ago I was sitting at a stoplight.

And then came Lawrence, walking down the sidewalk.

It had probably been twenty-five years since I last saw him, but he hadn’t changed a bit. Same long hair, same wobbly walk. He was wearing a football helmet.  

I wondered where he was going.  Why was he wearing a football helmet?  I had always known that he wasn’t quite right, but now I wondered what it was that made him Lawrence.  Where did he live?  Did he even have a home?  Did he have friends?  I wondered if the kids today adopted him as we had so long ago.  Or was he more alone than ever?  Lots of questions, little time for answers.  The light turned green and I drove away.

A few months later I was walking into the supermarket and I saw him again, standing alone by the recycle bin.  This time he was wearing an Indian headdress – feathers, beads, full chief-of-the-tribe headdress.  I couldn’t help but to smile at the sight.  Knowing he wouldn’t recognize me, I almost walked on into the store, but something made me stop as I stepped up on the curb.  Our eyes met.

Hey, Lawrence, I said, trying to convey a sense of casual warmth. 

He gave me that same look he gave Kevin twenty-five years earlier. Do I know you? he asked through those squinted eyes.

I knew you a long time ago.  I’m Joe.

Joe.

Yeah.  How are you doing?

OK.

It’s good to see you.  It was hard to make conversation.  I couldn’t ask him what he was doing these days.  The answer was obvious.

You say you’re Joe?

Yeah, Lawrence, Joe.  We used to hang out a long time ago.  You doing OK?

Yeah, he said turning his head away.  Just waitin’ for a ride.

Well, I guess I’ll catch you later.  What else was there to say?

I paused for a second, wondering if I should do more.  I turned and walked into the store.  When I came back out he was gone.

I saw him a few times after that and he looked more bizarre each time.  People who didn’t know him were afraid of him and went to great lengths to avoid him.  Who could blame them?  I couldn’t help but smile every time I saw him.  I kept telling myself I would talk to him again, to try to find out more about him, maybe help him in some way.  I never did.

Lawrence is dead now.  The obituary didn’t say much.  No mention of family or friends.  Apparently no service.  Cunningham Funeral Home is in charge of the arrangements, is all it said.  I hope he had family. I hope he had a friend. I could have been one.

But it’s over before you know it. A day is like a thousand years. And a thousand years is like a day.


copyright 2019, joseph e bird

Although based on true events, this story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

i could see it coming.

And then comes Lawrence.

He cruised in on his bicycle, coasting to a stop at the top of the hill, looking down on us.

I had no idea who he was, this older, skinny, scraggly guy with no shirt, riding a bicycle with streamers on the handle bars and a horn on the front. He was older, but I know now that it was by no more than ten years. Still old enough to not be riding around on a pimped-out, beater-bike, old enough to have better things to do than look for company with school kids, old enough to have enough sense to recognize real trouble in the form of Brando and Kevin, who had enough mean in them to put some serious torment onto the meek and the lowly, and all it would take was the sniff of arrogance, the notion that Brando and Kevin, though physically superior to almost all who crossed their paths, were not on the same playing field intellectually, or that over time, righteousness would reign and the meek and the lowly would indeed inherit the earth, and the beast would be cast into the lake of fire. As I would learn much later in life, God’s plans are fulfilled in God’s time where a day is like a thousand years and though justice would eventually prevail, it might not come soon enough for the victims of Brandon and Kevin. The scars of their torment could linger for years.

And so I wondered, what of Lawrence?

But I could see it coming.


copyright 2019, joseph e bird

This is an excerpt of a story in progress and is fiction, although it is based on true events. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

solomon plays

I don’t dance
I can’t dance
I don’t know how to dance and never will
But sometimes
Things just happen

I wasn’t there to dance
At this little dinner club
Where through the old sagging glass
I watch the river flow lazy
As it always has and will forever

I’m not from here
Not that it matters
And maybe that’s why this place is special
No one knows me
No one cares

I eat alone, as always
Steak, medium well, baked potato
I don’t drink except for when I’m here
Ice cold beer
From the tap

And here
All is well, peaceful
My other life, mistakes I’ve made, mistakes to come
Is miles upriver, coming for me
But not here yet

Most everyone is coupled up
A group of four or party of six
If I’m the object of pity or curiosity I don’t care
Because the steak is good
And the solitude comforting

In a far corner
A black man named Bob plays jazz on the piano
While a skinny white boy named Solomon blows a saxophone
Lipton’s on guitar
And Jupie lays down the beat

I know their names
But to them
I’m just a guy by the window eating a steak
Maybe not even that
And that’s how it should be

Somewhere in New York
Or Singapore
The same scene is played out with different actors
But no better than
Right here, right now

Yes, another beer
So I don’t have to leave
Because across the room with the party of six
Sits a woman
Alone

She’s in the company of others
A man works to keep her attention
And though she is with him and smiles on cue
She’s not really with him
And she knows I know

And Bob plays slowly
And Jupie taps the high hat
And the couples can’t resist as they move to the center of the room
And embrace politely
And sway as Solomon plays

And Savannah dances too
Though that’s not her name
But it should be because it’s a beautiful name
They dance as two
Who will never be one

She knows I’m watching
And I smile
And she smiles and we both sense the same thing
And we both know
That possibilities are impossible

And the song ends
And most sit
As the tempo changes and dancing is less forgiving
They, like me
Don’t dance

My glass is empty
My time is done
And I look to her table and she’s not there
And as I lay my napkin beside my plate
I look once more

I see her as I walk across the room
Walking toward me
And we meet in the center of the room, the music daring us
And I accept the dare
And reach for her hand

Her right hand in my left
My hand on her waist
And we move slowly to the beat, and she is smiling
And I don’t know what I’m doing
But it feels right

I pull her hand in front of us
And her momentum
Sends her into a soft twirl, her hair flying toward me
And as she comes back, I pull her close
And I kiss her

She blushes
And behind me I hear gasps
From the table of six and I can imagine their looks
Though I’ll never know
Because hers is all that matters

The music plays
But I release her soft hands
And I won’t even turn to look as I walk away
And I know I’ll never go back
As Solomon plays


copyright 2019, joseph e bird

This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

no place for a young girl

Every year about this time we go to the cemeteries and clean the graves of those who have gone before. It makes you realize how fast time flies. Has it really been that long? And then there are all those forgotten graves. What was their story? Maybe this.


she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
up the steep gravel road,
through the woods
to the clearing
where the old grey headstones
were covered in moss
and leaned toward the earth
as if they were too tired
to stand up straight,
for so long they had stood in testament to
the forgotten lives
of those whose names were
were worn from the stone
by the unrelenting and unforgiving
passage of time.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
because there were snakes
and yellow jackets
and maybe bears.
and at night
across the hollows
voices and laughter and music
and now and then
a gunshot
would echo
from neighbors unknown,
and though the graveyard
was close
it was no place for
a young girl alone.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
but along with the grey, rough tablets
of ancient men
and their wives
and their children,
were smooth slabs
of curved and polished marble
with praying hands
and crosses
and Bible verses
written in script,
and names her grandmother knew
of this cousin and that uncle,
and her grandmother’s husband,
the grandfather she had never known.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
under the deep shade
cast by towering oaks and maples
where grass wouldn’t grow
and moss and lichens
clung easily to the old stones
and left her grandfather’s headstone
untouched by nature,
save for the pollen in the spring
that she would wipe with her finger
from the smooth marble,
that also promised
that her grandmother would
someday
rest with him.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
but her grandmother worried too much.
she had never seen a snake
and stayed clear of the bees
and the idea of bears
just seemed silly,
and it was peaceful
always peaceful.
and she would talk to God
and ask why other kids
teased her,
though she knew
it was because her clothes
were old and
she was poor.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
and she sat beside the grandfather
she knew only from photographs,
and read Psalms
from his old Bible
and drew wisdom from the words
that would stay with her
all of her days,
and give her
comfort
through her pain,
and strength
through her weakness,
and courage
through her fears.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
and when she saw him
she knew her grandmother
had been right,
and she had been foolish,
and as he came toward her
he took a drink
from a bottle
and wiped his mouth
on his sleeve
and laughed,
and she knew
that he had come
from the valley
of the shadow of death.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
but she would fear no evil
and she always carried a staff,
the old iron pipe
from her grandfather’s workshop,
heavy and cool,
and she stood
and gripped it in both hands
and drew back
and stepped toward him
and swung,
and he screamed as it struck
against his ribs,
and his bottle dropped,
and she ran off the hill.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
she didn’t tell her grandmother
and she didn’t sleep
for days,
and when the kids
teased her because
she had to tape the soles
of her shoes,
and because she lived
in a shack with her grandmother
because her mother had
killed herself with a needle,
she cried into her pillow
softly,
so her grandmother wouldn’t hear.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
and it was weeks before she went back
to find her staff,
her grandfather’s iron pipe,
which had given her comfort,
and to find the peace
that had left her.
but it wasn’t the same.
she couldn’t read
she couldn’t pray
she couldn’t close
her eyes
because he might
be out there
still.

she wasn’t supposed to go there by herself.
and though she was afraid,
she still went there by herself,
because it was there
she had learned of
peace and strength and courage.
and she would grow
and live far away
from the hollows,
and the kids who teased her,
and she would become a woman
strong in her will and
strong in her faith
and though she was never alone
she went there by herself.


copyright 2017, joseph e bird
photo copyright 2017, joseph e bird

how to write a novel

If only it were so easy.

On page 83 of Cormac McCarthy’s novel The Crossing, I had a moment of realization.

In the years before World War II, young Billy Parham has trapped a wolf and is determined to take it back from where it came, the mountains of Mexico. How the wolf is trapped, how he frees it from the trap, how he manages to transport the wolf while on horseback, is in itself a captivating story. The details provided by McCarthy, the knowledge of the pre-war cowboy, the behavior of wild wolves, his knowledge of geography, his use of language is masterful.

And on page 83, I realized that he couldn’t have accomplished all of this in the first draft. Or the first major revision. As I marvel at his writing, I know, without the need for confirmation, that this part of the story required so much work. I can see a first draft getting down the basics. Then another layer of detail. And another. And another. I can see complete restructuring of scenes when something strikes McCarthy as unrealistic or implausible or maybe not the right tone.

So much work.

Yeah, it’s hard enough to get to 80,000 words. But if you think you’re done after the first draft, you fooling yourself. The first draft is not worth reading.

It will be better after your first round of revisions. But it will take more. Painful edits. Re-writing entire sections. Killing off beloved characters. New beginnings. New endings.

But the truth is, if you want to be good, you have to work hard. It’s true for anything you do.

Can you handle that?

Buck up, friends. Do the work. Don’t expect it to be easy.

city mud

The cold bites and the wind blows hard and he pulls his gray wool coat together at the front and his eyes water and the sidewalk is a moving blur and the city is alive, as it always is, with people, now just huddling masses, their faces down and wrapped in scarves, silently pulsing along on the wet concrete, and the only sound he hears is rush of air past his ears.

Two more blocks.

Snow is pushed up against the buildings and mounded at the curbs making the path he shares narrow, and though no one in the city walks slowly, on days without snow there are those with the energy of youth, and dreams unsullied and they walk with intent and dart and dodge and walk the curb for a few steps like a walker on a tightrope with no fear or hesitation because they can and tomorrow is for losers. But on this day, it isn’t so.

He’s on the wrong side, next to the street, and he begins to angle toward the buildings, stutter-stepping behind a man in a dark coat, though he’s not really sure if it’s a man. Another moving bundle sidesteps around him and he imagines it is a woman with no real reason to think that other than instinct. Not that it matters. The sidewalk is anonymous.

There are three steps up to the door, a grandfathered anachronism in a world where all are equal and everything is for everybody. One day the owners of Brewsters will be sued and because there is no practical means of providing a ramp, they’ll go out of business and move to Jersey and start all over again. He grabs the wet rail with his gloved hand, thinking for a moment that he’s wearing his dress gloves, and pulls himself up to the first step, then the second, before pushing open the door at the top.

He blinks, clearing the tears from his eyes, and he inhales deeply, relieved to have escaped the outdoors. He takes off his gloves and stuffs them in the pocket of his coat. He runs his fingers over his hair, tamping down the strands that he knows are wandering, as they have started to do as of late, even after he has adopted a more conservative style more suited to a man his age. Not that he is old. Far from it. But his rakish twenties are far behind him and middle age is on a distant horizon because it’s not really a function of life span divided by two, but closer to a traditional retirement age, which is at least twenty years off.

The line is short. In fact, there is only one person in front of him, hidden under a polyester parka, and as he/she moves to the left, the barista confirms his order without even asking and two minutes later he is putting on his gloves and pulling open the door. The wind again assaults him and he is walking, trying to keep his coat closed as coffee sloshes out of the drinking slot and onto his calfskin gloves. He takes the coffee in his other hand and slings the coffee from his glove and then wipes it on his coat.

He turns left at the next block and crosses the street and the buildings block the wind, at least most of it, and it’s no longer strafing his face but now seems to come from random directions as it’s buffeted in the man-made canyons of office towers and condominiums. Another block and he reaches his building.

He takes off his gloves while juggling his coffee, which he has yet to even sip. Gloves in the pocket, he reaches inside his coat for his proximity card. Inside the elevator, he touches the reader with his card and pushes the button for the fortieth floor. The elevator is crowded, shoulder to shoulder, but it might as well be empty.

The meeting will start in twenty minutes, just enough time to hang his coat in his closet and check his emails, then on to the conference room. He’s the first one there.

“Good morning, Breece.”

Anthony, his assistant. He returns the greeting. Anthony places a copy of the summary documents at every place at the table.

Anthony stops, points to Breece’s feet.

“You’ve got a little mud on your shoes.” Anthony goes to the sink at the bar and wets a paper napkin and hands it to Breece.

It’s not much, just a dark brown smear, but it stands out against the burgundy leather of his Edward Greens.

Mud.

Where would he have tracked through mud?

Not really mud, of course. City mud. Just ordinary grime. Dirt. Grit washed down from the buildings. Decomposed crumbs from the food carts. Spilled coffee. Pigeon droppings. Rat feces. A disgusting layer of dregs that wash away with every heavy rain, but when it snows, there is no cleansing, and then a sprinkling of salt, and the dirt turns to a chocolate batter and sticks to everything it touches, even a thousand dollar pair of shoes.

Boots. That’s what he ought to be wearing. Not polished leather with brass eyelets and buckles. Boots like his grandfather’s. Scratched and worn, mismatched laces. They were always covered with a thin dusting of light brown soil, but in the spring, when his grandfather would walk behind the Gravely and till the garden for the first time, moist earth would gather in clumps on the soles. Young Breece would follow behind, breathing in the rich aroma of life in the ground that had been buried under the long, cold winter months. Earthworms wiggled and squirmed, not at all pleased that their slumber had been disturbed. Breece would look for the biggest ones, pull them from the newly formed clods and drop them into the soil-filled coffee can where they would later be sacrificed to the small-mouth in the Coal River.

He wore sneakers back then and didn’t care about dirt or mud or anything else on his shoes or under his fingernails or the ever-present dark stain on the knees of his jeans. He was always digging through the earth or building a dam across the creek at the bottom of the holler and breaking apart the claystone in search of fossils or playing games of full-contact tackle football in the vacant lot behind the junior high school.

It was best when it was muddy, as it usually was in late October, just after the leaves had changed. And it was cool but not cold and they had played on the field so much that the grass was worn and the least little bit of rain made puddles, and a good tackle was when you brought down the kid with the ball and you slid another five yards after hitting the ground. You weren’t really playing tackle football if you were clean, and it was understood that you had to let the mud dry in thick cakes and then knock it off only after your parents yelled at you and then sprayed you off in the back yard with a garden hose.

Mud. Beautiful, glorious, thick, West Virginia mud.

And then the explosion at the plant. Five men were killed, including his father.

Shortly after, he and his mother moved to Connecticut. She remarried. He went to prep school. His grandfather died of cancer. They went back for the funeral, but didn’t even spend the night. There was no family left.

After prep school, it was on to Princeton for his undergraduate degree, then Harvard Business School. Then New York City.

He wipes the smear from his shoe and looks at the brown stain on the napkin. Anthony has left the room. He raises the napkin to his nose and breathes in, hoping to get a sniff, a hint, of what he has forgotten, what he remembers, what his sterile, well-kept life has sheltered him from all these years.

Nothing.

He looks at his manicured hands, the clean, crisp fingernails so short that he couldn’t get mud underneath if he tried.

Anthony has re-entered the room, along with a gaggle of similar well-bred elites ready to negotiate the deal that will ultimately enable them to buy expensive shoes and live in upscale apartments and summer on the island and hire a gardener to mow the lawn and trim the trees and dig the soil and plant the shrubs and let the gardener’s fingernails be the ones marred by years of honest toil and the richness of all that is basic and good and pure.

Breece looks out the window. Glass towers as far as he can see. Somewhere beyond are mountains and valleys and rich, fertile soil. Real dirt. Real mud. Real life.

He folds the napkin and puts it in the inside pocket of his suit.


This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

copyright 2019, joseph e bird

Clint Eastwood and the White Wool Coat

In the movies, it’s called a meet cute.

The boy rounds the corner and knocks the books out the girl’s hands. They bend down to pick them up and before they know it, there’s a spark. There’s an awkward, yet endearing, conversation. She smiles as he watches her walk away. You know right then where the story is going. It will be – eventually – a happy ending.

That’s the movies. Let me tell you about my real-life meet cute.

It was in a coffee shop. No surprise, right? Almost a cliché in itself. But I like coffee shops. I could tell you why, but truthfully, if I have to explain this to you, you might as well stop reading right now. The other day I overheard a co-worker tell someone that he didn’t like coffee, that he would have no reason to stop by the new coffee shop on the west side. I find it hard not to hold his dislike of coffee against him. You’re really missing the point, man. You don’t like coffee? Fine. There are other options.

A couple of years ago my nephew spent the night at our house over Christmas. When he said he didn’t care what he had for breakfast, my wife started making oatmeal. We didn’t learn until he was finished eating that he had been lying. He should have said he didn’t care what he had for breakfast, as long as it wasn’t oatmeal. Too late. But the oatmeal he ate that morning was unlike any oatmeal he had ever eaten. If you take plain oatmeal, bland as it is, and add a little brown sugar, some raisins, apples and walnuts, topped with a little cream, what you end up with is a big bowl of oatmeal cookie. Who doesn’t like oatmeal cookies? My nephew did.

So, co-worker man, if coffee is a little too bitter for your still-developing child-like palette, they can foo-foo it up (as my wife would say) and give you something sweet and mushy. But then again, going to a coffee shop isn’t really about the coffee. It’s about people. Seeing people, talking to people. Just being among other human beings.

Back to my meet cute.

This coffee shop is just a couple of blocks from my office. I don’t always stop there in the morning because they’re not open when I go to work before seven. It’s a quiet and peaceful place. Soft music is always playing. People doodling on their laptops. Quiet conversations.

So I’m at my office on a Friday morning a week and a half before Christmas and I find myself at a good stopping point in my work. The sun is shining and it’s an unusually pleasant day for December so I grab my coat and head out the back door and make my way to Main Street. I’m going to get a cup of coffee, maybe a muffin, and sit at a table by the window and watch people go by. I can just take off from work like that because I’m an important executive and I’m a salaried employee and I come to work early and stay late and if I want to take a few minutes for myself in the middle of the morning I have the moral right to do so. I also have so many weeks of vacation built up that it would be nearly impossible for me to use them all. For those of you who have a propensity for delving into a person’s psyche, this little tidbit about my inability to use my vacation time will tell you something about me, though I don’t think I would care to know what this tells you. Not that it matters.

I get to the shop around 10:30 and stand in line for a few minutes and then it’s my turn and the owner of the shop says hello, calls me by name, and takes my order – a medium black coffee. No nonsense. No cream, no sugar, no flavors, no steamed milk, no holiday blend. Because I’m a man. A grown man. Clint Eastwood drinks his coffee black. Maybe. I don’t really know. I’m sure he’s a nice guy, this hipster, and I’m sure not all the world’s problems result from his generation’s socialist leanings, but I’m getting old and my time has passed and it’s the role I must play, the only other option being the teetering, out-of-touch relic from another time. But I don’t teeter (yet) and if I’m going to be an out-of-touch relic, I’m going to be a hard-edged Eastwood-type who the kids actually fear when I tell them to get off my lawn. That’s right. Black coffee. And one of those scones. Cranberry.

I’ve moved down the counter now, standing, waiting for my coffee. And my scone. The hipster stands to my left, looking trim and fit, skinny, really, his jeans rolled neatly up to his ankles. He’s wearing a slim-cut suede jacket and a knit cap. A backpack hangs from his left shoulder. He’s texting on his phone, his thumbs flying. He’ll take a table near the window, maybe my table, and pull a laptop from his backpack and begin to do whatever people do when they have a laptop in a coffee house. Facebook? No. He’s young. Instagram. Or maybe some other app that I don’t even know about. A young girl who looks like she’s fifteen but is probably twenty-five – I can’t tell anymore – shakes a can of whipped cream then squirts a mound of foam on the skinny latte with cinnamon and a dash of nutmeg and the contradiction of the skinny latte and the whipped cream is lost on the poor hipster boy. Or maybe it’s not, because what does he care about calories? She hands him the drink and he goes straight to my table.

Get away from there. I shout this across the room. In my head.

The girl hands me my scone in a paper bag and I’m waiting for my coffee, anxious to find another table and set about the business of relaxing, and then she hands me the cup, my name printed neatly on the side of the cup.

There’s a stack of napkins to my left. Had they been to my right, I probably wouldn’t be telling you this story. But they were to my left. I’m holding the scone in my right hand, the coffee in my left. I need my left hand free to grab a napkin, so I transfer the coffee to my right hand, holding it just with my thumb and index finger, the scone in the bag below the cup. Not a good grip at all.

And this is when it happens. My meet cute.

I didn’t see her come in. I didn’t know she had been behind me when I ordered. I didn’t know she had moved down the counter to wait for her order. I didn’t know she was standing so close to my right.

And I turn to go toward the front of the coffee shop, and before it even registers in my mind that she is there, I bump into her and my coffee falls from its high perch, tumbles toward her, hits the front of her coat – her beautiful white wool coat – and the lid pops off and the coffee flies everywhere and I watch as the cup empties itself completely, and a horribly beautiful, artistic, brown stain flows downward to the hem of her coat and drips onto her brown leather boots and finally puddles on the floor.

I hear gasps from the people nearby. Then the entire shop goes quiet, except for me, mumbling an apology, grabbing the pile of napkins on the counter.

She hasn’t moved, this young woman, save to hold out her hands, hot coffee dripping from her fingers. I start there, wiping her hands, apologizing the whole time, and when her hands show no more signs of coffee, I start on her coat, trying to soak up the brown stain, and I realize that I have to stop because my actions are highly inappropriate, even if my intent is plainly obvious.

By now the shop owner has made his way from the other side of the counter with a handful of paper towels and he faces the same dilemma I faced but he thinks more clearly and asks her to take off her coat which she does and he lays the coat on the counter and begins sponging up as much coffee as he can. It’s a losing battle.

She hasn’t moved.

I’ll see if I can rinse it out, he says, and without asking, he takes the coat to a back room.

She still hasn’t moved, but she turns to look at me.

She’s a lovely woman, much younger than I, though not so young that I shouldn’t notice her loveliness. She appears to be of Asian descent. And her eyes are filling with tears.

I’m so sorry, I tell her. I don’t know what to do.

The young girl on the other side of the counter hands me more paper towels and I kneel down and start to sop up the puddle on the floor. She takes a step back, allowing me to get to the puddles that have pooled behind her and I see the coffee in drips and runs on her boots and without thinking and without asking I start to wipe off her boots, first the tops of her feet, but they’re boots and they rise over her calves and again I cross that boundary of propriety without thinking and without any intention other than trying to right the wrong and clean up the mess and I’m on the floor where shoes have trod and spills throughout the day have dried into dark circles and crumbs from scones and muffins and cookies are scattered like tiny boulders and my hands are getting dirty and the knees of my executive slacks are wet and gathering grime and I no longer feel like Clint Eastwood but more like Willy Loman and I feel the blood rushing to my face and now I want to stay down among the other shoes that I see gathered around because to stand will reveal my reddened face and expose my shame and confirm my humiliation.

But I rise to my feet and again tell her I’m sorry and she’s not quite crying but there are tears and she is sad. I take off my coat and put it on her shoulders because everyone else has a coat except her and she looks cold and lonely and though she probably isn’t, I don’t know what else to do. I tell her I’ll go check on her coat and I walk to the back of the shop where I imagine a food preparation area but there are only bathrooms. The door is open and the shop owner is trying to dry the coat with paper towels. It looks like the coffee has washed out but I look closer and see the stain, lighter, but still there. The shop owner has done all he can. I thank him and take the coat.

The young woman is sitting at table by herself, her own coffee drink in front of her. She moves it away from me as I approach, carrying her coat draped across my arm, holding it out from my body as if it’s a blemished lamb, because that’s exactly what it is. I shake my head. I lay it on the table and sit at the table across from her.

I’m so sorry, I say again for what seems like the tenth time and she manages a smile and tells me it’s ok.

I’m really sorry. Eleven.

I’ll pay to have it cleaned. And I’m already thinking that I’m going to buy her a new coat because the stain is likely there forever.

She puts her hand on the coat and strokes it lightly. It was my mother’s coat.

The phrasing of the statement is not lost on me. It was her mother’s coat. Her mother has died.

I’m so sorry. Seventy times seven will not be enough.

I don’t actually remember her wearing the coat. Or her, for that matter. She died when I was a child.

I stop myself from saying I’m sorry again.

Old photographs my father had. The three of us. Mother, Father, me. Mother wearing the coat. I thought it looked so sophisticated on her. After she died, my father held on to her things. He died two years ago and it was all left to me. I found the coat in a trunk.

So, I’ve not just ruined a coat, I’ve ruined an irreplaceable keepsake. I’ve ruined the one connection this poor woman has to her mother.

I had it cleaned. Sewed some seams that were coming apart, and then just hung it in the closet. And this winter I thought it would be nice to wear it, to think of her, to let her live a little through me.

I’m trying to think of something to say, something other than I’m sorry, thinking there must be a phrase or an expression of remorse that goes beyond mere sorrow, one that puts me on my knees, not to beg forgiveness, because what’s the point in that, because it’s not about me feeling better, it’s about somehow finding words or actions that can make up for what I’ve done. But it’s done and can’t be undone.

I just shake my head. I tell her again I’ll pay to have it cleaned. I’ll buy her a new coat, I tell her, and I feel stupid as soon as I say it, as if a new coat would have the same connection to her mother. But what else can I do?

It doesn’t quite fit. She was a little smaller than me, apparently.

I’m silent, because there are no words.

It’s only a coat. It was my mother’s coat, not mine. I’ll have it cleaned as best I can. Then I’ll keep it in the closet. I’ll bring it out now and then, and think of her, but really, I have no memory of her to recall. Just a mother and father and a little girl in a photograph. That’s all.

She’s smiling now. A sad smile, but a smile nonetheless. She reaches for her coffee and I move her coat away from the table and lay it across the back of a chair. She laughs a little. We talk.

Her name is Janine. She lives in New York. She’s an accountant in town performing an audit of the local bank. She travels a lot and likes to explore the towns she visits. She’s traveled to Japan twice to visit the families of her mother and father, but there are fewer of them now, and in Japan she is a stranger in a strange land. And here she is, in a small town coffee shop, with a coffee stain on her mother’s coat.

She needs to get back to the bank.

I apologize again and I’ve lost count of how many times, and she assures me again that it’s ok, that I don’t have to pay for dry cleaning or buy her a new coat or in any way try to make things right. Because we both understand that I can’t.

How can you be so gracious after what I’ve done?

She offers no answer. She stands and realizes my coat is still around her shoulders.

I believe this is yours.

She hands me my coat.

And this is yours.

I help her into her mother’s coat. The front is still damp and she looks at the stain and sighs. It’s all I can do to keep from apologizing again. Instead, I thank her, and in the moment, I’m not sure what I’m thanking her for except that the kindness and understanding she showed to me was so undeserved.

We walk out of the coffee shop together, our conversation now just the usual chatter that people who really don’t know each other make as they’re about to leave each other’s company. The ordinary, the forgettable. Nothing witty, nothing charming.

It wasn’t that kind of meet cute. Meet truth is maybe a better description. She’ll go back to the bank, back to New York with a story to tell.

And me? I’m still here. Still drinking my coffee black. Still imagining I’m Clint Eastwood. Still working too much.

But this Christmas is a little different. I understand a little better. I’ve experienced grace.


This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

copyright 2018, joseph e bird

Huntington’s Disease

It’s been described as having ALS (Lou Gehrig’s disease), Parkinson’s, and Alzheimer’s simultaneously.  There is no cure and the disease is fatal.

According to the Huntington’s Disease Society of America, there are currently 30,000 symptomatic Americans.  That’s less than 0.01 percent of the population.  But if you or a loved-one has Huntington’s, that’s a meaningless statistic.

My family has no first-hand experience with Huntington’s.  The wife of a former associate pastor at our church was my introduction to the illness.  When they came to our church, she was in the middle-to-late stages of the disease.  She was still able to walk and engage in conversation, though it was sometimes difficult to understand what she was saying.  Her symptoms at the time included chorea – involuntary and unpredictable body movements that affected her upper body, arms, and face.  Over the course of a few short years, her symptoms worsened.  Soon she was unable to walk and required a wheelchair.  Then a nursing home.  After a year or so there, she passed away peacefully.

She was fortunate in that she had a husband who loved her unconditionally and was by her side until the end.  I don’t really know what his life was like as the primary caregiver, but I have no doubt that it was unimaginably challenging on so many levels.  He leaned on his faith, as did she, with the knowledge that though in this life she was broken, in the next she would be made whole.

In my novel Heather Girl, Heather Roth has Huntington’s Disease.  I didn’t start out to write a novel about someone with Huntington’s.  My intent was to tell the story of a young woman with challenges, one of which was how she was dealing with a serious health issue.  As the story unfolded, I learned that Heather’s mother had Huntington’s.  It’s hereditary.  If one of your parent’s had Huntington’s, there’s a 50-50 chance that you will have it. As my story begins, Heather is becoming symptomatic.  And she knows where it leads.  There are other complications in her life and because her family is fractured, she doesn’t have the best support system.  She doesn’t always act reasonably and her decisions are not always the best.  But this story is fiction.

In real life, the effects of Huntington’s, like the disease itself, are varied.  Some, like the wife of our pastor, have love and support all the way.  For others, it’s a long, lonely journey.  If you know a family living with Huntington’s, you can be a friend.  Little things can help.  A Frosty from Wendy’s is always a treat and good for those with difficulty swallowing.  A bowl of soup for caregivers on a cold, winter’s day will mean more than you realize.  And a sympathetic ear is always appreciated.

Even if you have perfect health – and nobody I know has perfect health – life can be hard.  Be a friend, lend a hand, and help someone find hope in the compassion that we can all offer.

 

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